deja vu...

We had the 20 week ultrasound a couple of weeks ago and it was confirmed to us that we're having another GIRL!!  She is healthy and beautiful weighing in at one whole pound (which makes me question my weight gain).  We had the ultrasound tech write down the sex of the baby and we brought the paper back to the kids and mom and dad Barkel who were watching them.  Natalie took the paper out and read what it was.  Jordan was hoping for a boy (just for Charlie's sake, of course) but I know he'll manage to love this little girl just as he adores Natalie and Ruby.  It's still hard for me to fully believe that this is a girl since sometimes the ultrasound techs are wrong.  But they were right with Natalie and Ruby (we didn't find out with Charlie). 

I've been feeling really great...gotta love the second trimester.  I am 6 months pregnant already.  This pregnancy is going by much faster than my other pregnancies!  I feel like I've put on more weight at this point than with the others.  And I also feel much more run-down this time around (maybe it's due to the 100 degree weather and my other 3 kiddos?!)  But the baby is more active than ever!  I know when I was pregnant with Natalie, Jordan was able to feel her move at about the 19th week.  When I had my ultrasound this time around at 20 weeks, you could already see the baby rolling around on the outside of my stomach!  That sensation never gets old and I know that it's something I will never forget!  I've been reading the baby books and scribbling down names and crossing them off after running them by Jordan.  But we are definately more in agreement with names this time around as opposed to the other times!

I can't quite seem to get a grip on the fact that come fall, I will have FOUR children.  When will it sink in that this is real?  I feel like I'm just going through the motions... I've done all this before.  When I was pregnant with Charlie, I kept thinking to myself, 'this is probably the last time we'll do an ultrasound, the last glucose test, the last time I'll flip through the baby name books, the last of the labor pains, the last epidural....'  I really believe that this is the final pregnancy, but I'm not having those thoughts.  The nostalgia is somewhat...amiss.  But the excitement about the baby herself is there.  I'm so anxious to prepare the bedroom for her arrival and go into labor, hold her and introduce her to our family.  When I hear the beating of her heart every four weeks, it still blows me away how blessed we are to recieve such an amazing gift.